 Post-op. He's alive!
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Jan. 28th, 2009 @ 09:24 pm 
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So much bad. Way too much bad. Yet, such a moderate species of bad comparatively to those around me that I have to conclude that it is only an annoyance.
Anyway, I'd rather focus on the positive. It is after-all one of my goals for this year (no resolutions; only goals.)
Without further ado, I give you the good, the great and the meh. But nothing negative, damnit! I promise.
Drinking is down. How much down? Well that's hard to tell. More importantly, my starved coping mechanisms, mostly well developed in my non-substance abusing folk, are becoming stronger. How do I know?
Well the answer to that deals with everything else I care about in life that is beginning (careful or we might scare it away!) to take more importance in my life and are starting to bear fragile and precious even if meek fruit.
Well, mostly. It seems that work is a gluttonous-bastard of a habit and will take anything I throw at it. Granted this was one of the things I've neglected and while it had begun to whither on the vine fed by my attention, it was the least of my issues because money is the one thing that kills everything else. While love of money may be the root of all evil (no proof) lack of money is at least its opposite but equal. So the conclusion all along has been while work may suck and I could care less, somethings are worse than lucrative employment at a job that I dislike. Where I'm at now, I'm moving back towards leading the pack. At my fullest, I can be a tough act to follow.
Neglect in 2008 has been almost a theme, despite my gains in Penguicon life, and family has been an easy victim. My hope has been to change that. My wife noticed the change today. No greater victory is there than this!
As far as Penguicon, things are better, but not exactly where they need to be. I'm afraid that I'm pulling attention from other pursuits into Penguigon, so I'm reluctant to devote myself fully. It may be silly, but I see my attention as a limited resource. I have much work to do, and have no doubt that I can complete it all. Effort is all that is required. But next year is up for grabs, I need to go to school to earn a degree, and consequentially put most of my effort into that.
Anyone with the skill, time and motivation to take up the banner of media is welcome. It's the toughest job you'll ever love, I can guarantee it. |
I hope you don't disappear completely while earning your degree! I'm sure I'm not the only one who'd say you're always welcome at parties, and we'll try not to beg you too hard to do any work while you're busy *wink*
I think it's awesome you're doing that, though, honestly. As soon as we can afford it, I'd like Chuck to go to school as well. What degree will you be pursuing?
Thanks. I probably forgot to mention I'm finishing Penguicon out this year, and attending school in the fall. That could be important.
In any case, I plan on attending the odd SMOS or ten, so I won't be a stranger. I may pick up a teensy job for the con but I want to see what I'm getting myself into, going back to school at 35 first.
Honestly I can't wait. I'll be going for Computer Science, of course, and if I'm still working at Compuware (crosses self superstitiously) I'll be attending Wayne State, hopefully for free.
Compuware dropped there tuition reimbursement program, it helps to read the emails once in a while. Sorry to throw bad news at you.
Eww, wow, yeah. That's the second time today I've been blindsided because I don't pay attention to corporate emails.
Maybe if they made them shorter? It's always all like blah,blah, blah your fearless bearded leader blah, blah, blah more shit about some corporate twat that makes more money than me blah, blah, blah filler material blah, blah, blah and - oh yeah we've started a corporate blogging system and cut your educational benfits blah, blah, blah, carry on.
Go to UoM-D. Forget Wayne State.
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